Wants (Tuesday, August 17, 2010 / 11:18 PM)
Okay, i changed the blogskin so i will hopefully get back into the blogging mood, lol. Guess it kinda helped, since i'm blogging now.
Usually the only time when people really feel like blogging or writing journals is when they're feeling down. A book said that. but i found it so true.
How? The impression was made. I can't be who i was anymore. I know myself that i changed. I realized it. You probably realized too. (it was pretty obvious)
I wanted to ask u about what's bothering me, but what's the use? No matter what, that impression will still remain in my head. I've spent quite an amount of time thinking about it, but it was useless.
I've always had my doubts all along, i just didn't want to acknowledge the truth. and now it all seems clearer that my doubts are right.
Didn't know i could change so fast though. Kinda scary.
I guess i'm curious about the truth, but what's the point of finding out. I didn't think it would work out in the first place, i still don't think it'll work out now.
Another thing. Making friends. Have you ever felt like u want to know someone alot?
Even though it's just an acquantance? Well i sure felt that way.
It was all going well, i was overly spontaneous (usually won't do that)
but just when i should continue doing what i was doing (which is getting to know that person better), i just didn't feel like doing it anymore.
I felt like i was doing all those things because i was bored and had nth btr to do, and that's totally nonsensical!
But i also felt like i'm really interested and curious to know more.
It's srsly weird.
I don't know what i want, and is it even possible to feel so happy throughout the day, but still so vexed?
I'm trusting my instincts. Seriously, when things fail, everyone should just trust their instincts. It's always the best way to go. Hahahh.
This post is such. an. emo. post.
Well i wouldn't be back if there wasn't an emo topic to rant about. xD
Don't think anyone can understand wts i talking about. Hahah! :D
I'll be back to normal blogging, don't worry. Heheeee(:
