Impression (Thursday, August 19, 2010 / 11:24 PM)
Okay i really hate being emo but i really need to be emo to feel better.
So this is (again) going to be an emo post.
Is it wrong to always do things for a reason? I don't understand why is it wrong. Why would anyone do things without a reason anyway?
I was judged today, for only doing things with a reason. But actually, instead of judging me, u could have just convinced me to do whatever u feel that i should do and am not doing. I'm actually easily convinced. But u didn't. U judged me without giving me a chance to prove you wrong. That is not nice.
Attitude & Enthusiasm? You don't know but those 2 things are always driven by reasons for me. U disliked my bad attitude and enthusiasm, but did u care what was my reason? U didn't care, and judged me anyway. But the thing is, i've already showed u what my reason was. Many times. But what do u expect me to do, if the reason why i was not enthusiastic was still there? The reason was boredom. Yes, i wouldn't be bored if you or even any one of you do anything at all to keep me from feeling bored. But nothing was done.
I wish to stop thinking too much and just be honest with everything and everyone. I could do that, but it will not be nice at all. In fact, it will be horrible. I will be super bitchy if i was that way. Some things are meant to be kept to yourselves and not said out.
you've pushed far enough, if u continue doing that, you wont be just pushing, but making me leave you.
