disappointed (Sunday, September 16, 2012 / 8:33 PM)
Hi.
i just came back from having dinner with bf.
i can't believe he forgot about my birthday tmr and scheduled fyp meeting in the afternoon.
i mean it's fine to do fyp but the forgetting part really hurts.
it's not like he was pre occupied or smth he was free.
i mean this just goes to show how much he cared.
maybe he doesn't care about me that much anymore?
i'm really disappointed ):
he stopped surprising me and showering me with love, but i thought that atleast he would do it for my birthday?
i felt so bad ..
even my "enemy" remember my birthday, and he completely forgot.
i don't know how much i can take this anymore. it's not want i wanted.
sad. ):
oh and, thanks arh C. u really made it till the very end to tell me how much of a jerk u are.
even though i'm so much relieved and i think i can forget abt it already, but don't you even feel sorry for me at all?
i mean u literally was damn bad to me in the past and it was all because u wanted to know how popular u are? are you freaking serious?
yet i was here wondering if it was a retribution from hurting your best friend. do you know how much pain i've gotten? how guilty i was? how heartbroken i felt for looking at you in such a good way even though i knew u were a jerk?
do u know how long it took to convince myself nth happened?
seriously, what a joke. am i born to be made fun of or what. yet i thought we were close.
i was expecting a better reason than that. a better explaination.
19th celebrations ( / 2:56 PM)
A little late but our still strong and cool 6F gang celebrated my 19th ytd at 313 somerset Marche.
It was a catching up day but i felt pretty happy (:
These people are so nice, really appreciate them.
Fran's not in this pic (:
there she is !(: my fav pic of the night. FCC reunited (:
so im kinda dieting now, well not rly, just watching what i eat, and i think it's being very effective^^
Cya~
real (Saturday, December 11, 2010 / 12:38 AM)
Hello ! I just got back home from bugis junction. Today dan & i went to aerenia's house to do mask for her aunt. i did a pink one!
Nice right !! :D i'm so artistic~ hahaaha!
Ok next up, danielle's one.
She did both of it alone, so talented :D so nice :)
next up, the failed one aerenia and arina did.
The redo one i don't have the picture. ):
We spent a lot of time doing these masks. Overall it was a fun experience, i miss art. The memories of primary school art club days came back to me. I used to love art so much. My ambition whn i was young was to be an artist. Srsly i really thought of being an artist. I almost entered Singapore's Art school for secondary education if not because my year SOTA (School of the Arts) wasn't built yet. I rmb i filled up the application form for that school in primary 6 haha :D
After doing the masks we went to Bugis junction hong kong cafe to celebrate aerenia's aunt's maid birthday. It's nice they celebrate their maid's birthday. Our family don't even know our maid's birthday D: And i had like.. 5maids already? =X
Went home after eating (:
So holidays have just started. Aerenia, Dan and i were supposed to go shopping at city plaza tomorrow but i just messaged them to say i'm not going. I don't have the mood idk why. i felt everything was so unreal. The feeling is unexplainable (i think i created a new word). It's something like i felt like i was going out for the sake of going out. I feel like a party spoiler, killjoy, mood ruiner and more. I'm always like that.
It's like, i've lost trust in some people, i have this strong feeling and i'm probably wrong. But i just don't want to face it. I'm sick of it.
I dunno what's with my "intuition" or whatever it is, moodswing? emotional? I don't know. But i trust my intuition because 9/10 times it's always right.
Sometimes i'm thankful that i'm so sensitive and perfectionist. Sensitivity always let me feel the right thing and perfectionism always let me choose the right things.
Haiz..i feel so sorry. I don't know why also, just following my intuition. :/
BACK (Friday, December 10, 2010 / 1:44 AM)
Yay i'm done with changing blogskin! I like this new blogskin hahaha! new blogskin=got the mood to blog again woohoo! alright alright.
so today is my last paper, PACC paper for MST ! it was an easy paper :D Happy happy.
i found the MSTs for this sem2 overall quite easy, really hope i score well !(:
After the paper Aerenia, Danielle and i went to the new shopping centre in serangoon, NEX. The shopping centre is huge but the stores are so unorganised, i don't like. :/ But okay lah got alot of shop.
I feel so happy that holiday has started, it felt so long for this holiday to reach. But now that it's finally here, i don't really have major plans. Well maybe to shop ^^ and catch up with friends. But i would really like to learn a new skill or two like guitar, drums, or even taekwondo or smth haha.
This morning i chanced upon the mediacorp show "心情大动员" and it was showing them helping this family of 3. The dad and mom was deaf and mute. but the child, like 3yrs old+ was perfectly normal. That family btw was living in Toa Payoh in my uncle's 1-room flat block.
The show was showing the child being naughty and the dad could not scold him so he could only spank him. After watching the part about the kid, emotions waved through me and tears started flowing out. It was so heartbreaking.
The whole bus trip to SP i just kept thinking about it and tears wouldn't stop flowing lol! And i was thinking "I want to learn sign language and i want to go help Johnny (the kid's name)" Hahah! but i realise i don't know which floor and unit they stay -_- I really felt like i knew what i want to do in life already. That is to help people, like a social worker. But that thought was also "striked out" because i realise i'm in Business Admin. -.- I don't wanna waste my knowledge and effort being in this "business" path. ><
I would love to help them though.. it's like after watching that i felt so fortunate that i am healthy and i have so many things. I'll not give up though, i think that i'll be really happy to be able to help people.
Hahah oh great. I'm back to blog after such a long time and i posted such an emotional psychological post.
Once again, i'll be back to my normal self. :D
oh and just for fun this is my nail colour now! i will do french nails soon !
Nice? I recieved compliments! my taste not bad. hahaha bhb.
fishy tail (Monday, October 25, 2010 / 3:25 PM)
Hello hello almost dead blog, i'm back!! But that's because of one thing only, i finally learnt how to tie a fishtail braid after countless times of watching youtube videos about it! As u can see from the pictures, or probably can't since it's not even clear at all, i've succeeded ! Yayyyy. Sad to say, this is all i have to say lol. i came back to blog for such a frivolous reason. I know. :D I'm happy woo. Next i'm so gonna learn french braid. That one look so easy but hard siol ): when i succeed tt i'll post pictures too, till then, Anyeong~! (Bye in korean heh)
Job (Monday, September 27, 2010 / 10:17 PM)
Wow i had a really rough day today. The promoter job totally sucked like crazy. Omg i so regret signing up for it. Now i'm so worried that bitch is going to call me to work tomorrow. Ah first time i scold vulgarity in my blog. but she's really a bitch! I don't like her ttm.
I have a zillion complains but i shall not mention in my blog. Dirty my blog only. Hahah!!
Atleast i learn a lot of lessons. I will definitely appreciate what i have and not want too much anymore. I'm so traumatised by today. Horrible job, terrible experience.
AWESOME 17th! (Friday, September 17, 2010 / 12:07 PM)
Heyyy ! Yesterday started off with Aerenia,Danielle and Sarah surprising me with birthday cake at my house haha ! It was so unexpected but so sweet. Love them loads :D Afther eating the cakes we went warehouse sales shopping !! All of us bought something. I bought a green dress, black tight skirt and white sippers. So happy :) We all wanna be aunties and go for more of warehouse sales alr hahah.
After shopping went to Vivo to meet Charlene,Tze zi and He li and we went to the YOG workforce appreciation at UNIVERSAL STUDIOS ! First we went to this cool special effects attraction, with the scene moving, fire and many more. Super cool . Then we headed to the Revenge of the mummy ride! It was so scary and thrilling ! Super fun ttm. Thats my favourite ride (: After that we queued for the Canopy Rider, but when we were about to reach the start, the ride experienced technical difficulties and had to close down! Such a bummer. So we went for the water ride after that. That was fun and scary too XD
Hmm after that we went to Far Far away and sat the roller coaster there. It was scary but short :) Yep after that ah.. oh went for the treasures hunter ride. It was so boring! Kk after that went to sit the last ride of the day, which was the canopy rider again. This time we managed to sit it . Hahah. fun, but short.
Left at abt 11.30pm. Managed to catch the last train home. Had sooo much fun yesterday ! =)) I'm going out for lunch with pri sch frens later ! =) C yaa BYE!
